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Dreaming Alone at Night…

Every man needs time for himself. Do not let people take that away from you. It is important to sit back and reflect on who you are and what your principles are. It is always good to see what tempts you and why, what makes you angry and how, where do you want to go in life and where are you now. I do not think that we think enough. Perhaps thousands of thought processes go through the brain as researchers say, but I mean, thinking with the source of all reason: the Heart. I just wonder, as I sit here myself laying down, how much do I really think with my heart?

It would be nice to know what is really inside (I mean really). Unfortunately through a stronger effort to see what is inside of myself , I found that it is kind of scary. It is not that something unexpected to me that lies beneath, but the depth of the baggage is quite surprsing. The anger, the lust, the desire for power and position, the arrogance, I knew about it in my brain, but I was not aware of what lies below the dirt of my heart. They say, when a man is face to face with his own truth in his heart, most will run away screaming. Unfortunately, I have been that person. It is one of the scariest things in this life.

I do not know if us males know reality. We may physically sense it, but what do we do when we dream alone at night? Do we look at the stars? Does that do anything to our heart? I just wonder, were we born this way? I remember feeling different when I was younger. I remember lots of youthful anxiety and insecurity (like many kids have who want the whole world right now). This adulthood, however is different. Some people may call it growing up, or knowing the "real world." I do not think most of us know what the real world is. Sometimes I think babies know too much of the reality and that may be why the Creator made babies unable to speak. But just look deep at some babies eyes; it's different. There is a purity: a peaceful calmness unadulterated by lower desire. Then take a look at most adults eyes: stress, pain, sorrow, anger, paranoia, insecurity, lust, anxiety, depression and so on.

What happened to us? Where did this come into our being? Who gave this to us? It's important to elevate manhood and the spiritual self. If we are not thinking about it, then we will not do anything about it and never get back to our true nature. It is possible to let all this baggage go, but it will take great sacrifice, one that most of us are not willing to give up. It does not necessarily have to be taken away. But it must be that you are willing to give that thing away like the Prophet Abraham who was willing to sacrifice his son. That is all God wanted from him. Allah did not want Abraham's blood, He just wanted Abraham's Heart. These are just some thoughts from a guy laying down, dreaming alone at night.

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